Wear the Dress!

I wore the dress.

For a couple of weeks now I have been purposely skimming over this dress in my closet. I love it, love the colour on me. But...I hate that I can see the line from my stomach, or "apron". Such an ugly word. An apron of skin. So gross. Years of yo-yo dieting, losing and gaining weight have not been kind to my body. And that is what goes through my mind when I see the dress.

But this morning I was rushed getting ready for work and it's another beautiful, hot day here so I thought what the hell and I grabbed the dress. I put it on and my first thought was this 'this colour looks great with my tan', and then my eyes drifted south and I cringed. I have never been one for wearing shapewear or girdles as they used to be referred to lol. Even at my biggest. I find them so uncomfortable. I have always thought of it this way...I am uncomfortable with myself regardless of whether I wear those things or not so why torture myself all day and also be physically uncomfortable? No offense to anyone who swears by them, they just aren't for me. 

Anyway back to the dress...I forced myself to keep it on. This is a step in acceptance, self love, and acknowledgment of the fact that I couldn't fit into this dress 2 years ago and I need to be proud of myself. Thank you @perryn101 Nancy for your post on Validation. This is me validating myself and my hard work.

So, I wore the dress!